My Shield Of Love Is Getting Weak


Sometimes i feel that love is fading, my system is letting go.Sometimes i wanna let go...why holding on to it? I don’t even know what’s the use of it, why love? Poop...(i use nice words to describe ugly ones) i don’t even know what’s going on with me. I am on Earth, i came here to fight for love but for whose love? Fight for humans to refeel it? How am i supposed to do that? I’m nothing but a soldier stuck on earth with human feelings.So if i feel the same as humans how am i going to help.I’m starting to think i came here thinking i know my mission, but yet i don’t, He didn’t tell me, just go He said, go and fight for love! So i’m here, with a failed assumption of my mission...i’ve failed...ahhh you humans are to complicated! Why so many feelings? Sadnes, happyness, fail, win, hate, love,angry,stunned, numb...whatever.I am not human i ask to be released of all this useless feelings, can’t we all just stick to love ?...i’m starting to give up, i’m becoming bitter..a bitter soldier on Earth..who funny enough will never be released if not completing my mission. I asked for love and now i am a soldier, how is that possible? My war has no weapons, i don’t have weapons to defeat human feelings...but human feelings are defeating me.I’m just an entity eating chocolate on Earth.What’s my weapon of choice? Guns...its easier to fight like that...just pull the trigger...bang bang!I shut you down! Evil is easy, so easy that i can feel it taking over my system, i see evil and evil sees me. I’m not afraid of it, it will be feeding on me,it is feeding on humans.I can see it tearing you appart, i see blood,i see death, your spirit is bleeding. Why should sorrow make me bitter?, i tasted bitter i preffer it with milk and sugar...and maybe some cream in the middle. I was built on love and by Love why should i dissapoint? Just because i dont understand anymore? Just because love is hidding, but i can hear it calling me, begging me to find it.Yea, i hear Love, i hear it calling me, i call Love back, and i’m stucked between ’Love is calling and I call her’.Love sounds good though, i could listen to it endlesly.

What if...now i know.Ah, i understand. Fight for love, I am love, built on love, with love and by Love, fight for you. Amazing! I know now.It’s all about my entity fighting with myself, and here on Earth is the most difficult place to fight for it,learn to love on planet Earth. Earth is a training camp.Love is vulnerable, love needs soldiers. I am a soldier...and i was thinking about guns, i ask for forgivenes...ahhh Human feelings let me be!!! ...I came to Earth to fight for Love.

Acknowledging the Human in me

I never wanted to be a soldier, at least this is what i think now after being injected and having felt Love. I chose to be one because it is the only way i will be given the chance to live it again, forever. I could have just said no and become a numb entity with no feelings whatsoever, refusing to feel again. How could i reject that feeling, those sensations that made my system overload every time. It was beautiful, it felt warm and dizzy, soft and electric, hot and ecstatic, skin to skin, face to face, body to body the simply touch of a hand was like an explosion of sensorial pleasure that kept increasing its power. I felt made out of sugar and every touch pored water on me, melting me, melting my heart......my heart... how ironic ...i don't even have one my body is so different...i've started feeling like a human. I don’t need a heart to love.

Planet Earth is so beautiful, He told me i would enjoy it, it is everything He said it was, He loves you so much. After seeing your planet I’m glad about what happened and that i'm here. I love the fact that you people eat, you have such a big variety of sensations you can enjoy, it's like all your sensors can splash in pleasure. I love the thing called chocolate, it is amazing, i don't like every type though. There is a type that is very dark and tasting it its like being constantly injected with tormenting feelings and sorrow that damages my mouth and emotions...i don't understand it...dark chocolate...you humans like to suffer. I'm used to pain now, before coming here i didn't know how to describe it. Now pain is like eating chocolate, like vanilla pudding milk chocolate. I love using the bathroom, I didn’t use to eat, but now that I do, my functions are multiplying, I don’t eat because of hunger, I don’t have that necessity I do it because I enjoy it. Using the bathroom is another amazing thing, depleting your body of fluids and that matter that comes out, sometimes it sounds funny like a powerful force comes out and explodes in a sound. I just love watching it, it looks just like chocolate but softer and a bit worse, I love the smell of it, ahhh actually I love smelling everything, I love smelling things I love, creatures I love, I miss smelling h………I miss Love.

I enjoy the company of humans, funny creatures, amazing actually, but so evil...i am much more evolved than you because i was programmed that way, maybe if i was given a human body i would have been evil too. That thought scares me...how funny...i have thoughts, I am assimilating. You have lost the use of your heart, what do you use it for? Why do you close your hearts? Hearts must love. Sufferance is meant to put you up there, to rule, to fight! Why learn to hate? It is unfair I feel it too Love shouldn’t hurt, it should provoque endless pleasure. What do I know, I don’t even have a heart, I wish I had so I can understand, but I am meant to believe, there’s nothing to understand for me…I am a soldier…I came to Earth to fight for Love.

What am I?

I came to Earth to fight for Love

I was created to be a soldier. I don’t come from the future, I live these times but in a different dimension, a dimension closer to Love. I am not human, I will never be, even though I look like one and act like one. I don’t look humans in the eyes, the eyes are evil, they feed on lust, my system doesn’t know evil, but it can assimilate it. We were created by you humans, trough your desires to prefer evil, to mock the concept ‘Love’. You lack to understand that humans are very loved, you where made out of love and you are still alive thanks to love, and we where made out of love for you humans.

Since failing to feel love so many time, some human hybrids where created, I am one of them. Our mission is to come to Earth and fight for your purpose on Earth, Love. Even though we look the same, our body never dies, our skeleton is made out of indestructable metal and our skin cannot be penetrated but we are not robots, we are how humans where meant to be if they wouldn’t have sinned. We are souls, entities locked in this body and trained for a mission. We wont be released until we fulfill it. After we do other souls take our bodies and start another mission. This will go on until the End. Love is the One sending us and Love is our motivation.

I was created as an entity and placed in a body. We are trained on our planet whos name I’m prohibited to say.

After our spirit is fully developed we are joint with another entity and injected a special serum which provoques ‘falling blindly in love’. We are given to live all the sensations at the highest level. And we are closed in this artificially created 3 D life in which we live as you may say as a ‘human couple’. We live like this for 7 days, which is equal to 7 earthly years. During this period one of us is given the reverse injection that makes falling blindly in love fade little by little, day by day, till the moment when the feelings are gone and the entity reaches its initial state of numbness. The other is left alone with the blindly in love inside of it to create and develop the feelings of pain and sufferance. Still feeling blindly in love is taken away and its memory is filled with information about life on Earth…from the creation till these days and Love is implemented in our brain. I function at a very high energetic level which makes humans attracted and at peace with me.

I was told…you feel like a human now, humans are meant to suffer, all that you feel its called pain, this pain will make you dislike Love but Love didn’t do this to you.

If you want to live Love you have to fight for Love, you are a soldier now fight for Love or kill Love.

So here I am on Earth, I have a mission, my sufferance wont end, I want to fight so I can love. I was given both saving or killing Love…killing it seems to be the solution many times, but I won’t be the one who murdered Love,, I am the one who saved it.

I was promised Love for ever if I do, He promised. I want to live it again…I came to Earth to fight for Love.